Monday, 31 December 2007

New Year's Eve

The old year is about to pass, a new is already standing on the door step.

Looking back, 2007 hasn't been too bad. I got a great new job (and more money *g*), have deepened my contact with some of the Forumites, have worked on my story (plot, characters, wordage), had no mayor catastrophes, had a wonderful and hot spring (although the actual summer could have been better).

And as one does at the end of a year, I made resolutions for the new year:
  • I will put more effort and time in my writing
  • I will lose weight and get fitter
  • I'll save money for a nice autumn holiday
  • I'll see my friends more often
  • I will win the lottery *g*
  • I might do a language course (Spanish adult education course)

These are fairly managable, so I'm optimistic with sticking to them :)

I'm wishing all of you a nice evening and that you won't stumble while stepping from 2007 to 2008!

Sunday, 30 December 2007


Some idiots have been using their fireworks since yesterday. Fireworks were available since Thursday and there are always those people who cannot wait.
Which causes other people's insomnia...

We have a parking lot behind the house (this sounds horrible, but it is not; it's not in use much and mostly by those who live nearby) and the noise is carried perfecly loud to my living-room window. And I startle everytime one of those things goes off... (nice excuse not to write, I know *g*)

Saturday, 29 December 2007


I discovered Terragen sometime agaon on the internet while searching for world building tools.
I always do landscape descriptions better if I have an illustration before me. I already tried paintings by Hans-Werner Sahm (you'll find a lot more paintings if you google him).
They were good for inspiration, but after some time I wanted to have something... something that was... an image of my thoughts.

So, Terragen. You can practically change everything. The texture of the landscape, the height, how much water, how the sun rays come in, how much the water reflects them, the density and colour of clouds and so on and so on. Virtually everything.
Here are my very first (very rough) tries:

This is a bit how I imagine the Dragon Island to look like. Only the egg-like mountain-thing really is a vulcano

Laptop II

I'm still trying to get used to the new Laptop. There are a lot of things to discover.

And I haven't transferred any of my files... I've been playing around with Terragen the last evening.
I wanted to use this tool ever since I found it, but my old laptop was just too slow. But now I can! I have been playing around with it and done two landscapes yesterday (more on that later).

Anyways, since this is a fairly virgin system (no old files to look at, no bookmarks etc. etc.) I should, could and will write a bit. Who knows, perhaps this is inspiring?

Friday, 28 December 2007



I just bought myself a new laptop. It's a late (and rather expensive) Christmas present to myself.

I just started it and already noticed that it will take some time to get used to Windows Vista. Not to mention transfering all of my files and programms... :)


Over the last half year a lot of names have progress from [fillword] to an actual name, since I roughly decided on what defines the two tribes.

Tribe A is technically developed, names are European-like, they live in a prosperous country. They live in a few big cities, so the rest of the land can be used agriculturally.
Tribe B is not so technically developed, the names are based on arabic names, the country is dry but they have developed a wheat that only grows there. They live in small settlings, mostly only one clan at one place.
(Woho, see, conflict! *g*)

I know all this, and cannot, for the life of me, give those tribes names. They are still A and B everywhere.
I have checked books with names, have searched google for names of arabic tribes and such, but nothing took my fancy. *sigh*
(The world has no name yet, either)

I'm rather fed up with this. Maybe I will spent this Friday with google again UNTIL I FIND NAMES...


I didn't make any progress on story wordage, but I wrote about 600 words for a few paragraphs on the plot.

Surprisingly I know a lot more about Ella now, and what conflicts and obstacles she has to face and overcome in the course of the story. Conflict is what has been missing from my story so far. I have a bit of conflict in the plot - not nearly enough - but almost no internal conflict. I still do not know how to go about it, but at least I've found the problem.
And while I was on my way home yesterday I had a few more ideas about the relations between the two main tribes, how they are different and where they are dependent on each other.

All this is promising for the new year and I vowed to myself to make more writing time, even if I don't really have the time. I want this thing to get somewhere already! :)

Thursday, 27 December 2007


I'm back at work.

The only person in my family and circle of friends that has to work between Christmas and New Year.

And seemingly the only person in the whole building...
Of course, that's not true, but there are and will be very few people in today and tomorrow and it's very quiet round here. My boss is in for half a day although he is on holiday still, but from 10 people in my department, only 2 are here.

I should be glad about a bit of quiet time, to write. But when I came in today I had 190 unread e-mails, not to mention those read but not yet answered. Aaaand it's statistic day today, meaning I will have to spend a good hour on compiling that.
And since nobody's here, I have to do all the work alone... *sigh*

Wednesday, 26 December 2007


After I had received many books for my birthday, my family obviously thougth that that should be enough and didn't give me books for Christmas. My godfather and my godmother however did. :) I got Tintenherz and Tintenblut (that would be Inkheart and Inkspell for you). I will buy Tintentod (is there a translation for the third book yet?) as a late Christmas present to myself in the new year.

Together with the books my father (the His Dark Materials series) and my sister's boyfriend got, and those I'm currently still reading, I should be fine for the first... three months? ;)
Oh, and not to forget Jo's book, Spymaster's Lady, being released in January.

(I won't mention my other presents. Not because they are not worth mentioning, but because they might not be of much interest)

Tuesday, 25 December 2007

Christmas Menu

Oh boy did I get nice food today!

Yesterday was spent with my mother's side of the family at my aunt's and the food was delicious there too, but today...

My grandmother invited us to a three-course-menu.
The starter was apple-pumpkin-soup with curry. But as it was more a curry-soup with apple and pumpkin and since I cannot tolerate curry I didn't have more than one spoon of it.
But then, then came the main course. I had ravioli filled with spinach and ricotta cheese on rocket salad, doused with molten truffle-butter. Oh I was in heaven! :)
The dessert were little puff pastries filled with marzipancream, chocolates in various forms and fruits, all decorated nicely on a plate.

I will dream about that for a long time :)

Monday, 24 December 2007

Merry Christmas

I'm wishing all of you a very merry Christmas and restorative holidays!

May all your wishes come true in this magical time, full of wonders and lights.

Sunday, 23 December 2007

Christmas Cards

Here's the collection of the christmas cards I received this year (5 more than last year *yai!*)

Thanks to everyone!

Friday, 21 December 2007

Christmas Cheers

Check out the wonderful and funny clip Jen posted on her blog: here


Although I wanted to stay low with baking this year, I of course didn't. I just love baking and trying new recipes too much. :)

So I thought I would share this year's favourite cookies recipe:

Cranberry Spekulatius (I have no idea how to translate that; take a dictionary, look it up and tell me if you are any wiser *g*)

40 g(rams) dried Cranberries
125 g butter
150g sugar
1 egg
300g flour
4 teaspoons almond buskuit spice (OK, now I had to look up what Spekulatius means - only not sure if it's what you would say... The spice mixture you can buy over here contains: cinnamon, organge peel, lemon peel, cardamom, cloves, coriander, nutmeg)

Chop cranberries. Stir butter, sugar, pinch of salt and Spekulatius spice till well mixed. Add the egg. Stirr in flour with dough hook. Add cranberries.
Wrap the dough in saran wrap and place somewhere cold over night (the fridge is just fine).
Roll out the dough until 5mm thick. Cut 4x4cm pieces.
Put on baking tray. Bake for approx. 10-12 minutes at 200°C (392°F)

Wednesday, 19 December 2007

Cats II

The lady came, saw and fell in love. And took the cats with her today instead of Saturday.

And as much as I wanted to give them away, I'm in tears now.

Just as they were our the door, thousand thoughts assaulted my mind: you didn't cuddle them one last time, didn't tell them that you love them and they will get a nice new home, didn't let them sleep in your bed one last time, didn't take a few last pictures, didn't, didn't, didn't...

Just yesterday I was yellig at them and fed up because they had broken something. And now all I can think about is that I will never cuddle with them on the couch again, never will take Rocco in my arms again when he looks at me with those adoring eyes, never again will romp about the flat with them. And no one will enthusiastically greet me when I get home and wait impatiently for food anymore.

Monday, 17 December 2007


Could someone please give me a kick?

I'm not getting anything (writing related) done...


Some time ago I mentioned on Facebook that for personal reasons I will have to give my cats away.

On Wednesday a lady - who sounded very nice on the phone - is coming to visit to have a look at the two. She wanted to take them in the new year if there were sympathies on both sides.
Today she called me. She will already get them on the 22nd.

I just don't know, if I'm happy with that. With Christmas being only two days later and all that....

Rocco (baby)
Jamie (baby)

Christmas decoration

I put the final touches on my Christmas decoration today.

I know, I'm late.

Watching videos

I'm just watching the "Live at Loreley" video (yes video, no DVD back then) by the Kelly Family with the 1995 concert. Haven't done that in ages.

*sigh* What great times those were...

Friday, 14 December 2007

The Tales of Beedle the Bard

OHMIGOD!! won the auction for JK Rowling's hand-written, leather-bound "The Tales of Beedle the Bard"

They have a link with photos and descriptions here and the permanent link is here.

I'm sooooo excited, I cannot tell you how much.

Wednesday, 12 December 2007


Yesterday I was flipping through a catalogue with books at reduced prices (the books are usually remnants) and what did I find?

The Narnia Chronicles on 14 CDs in a cardboard wardrobe. Way cool! :)

But - if ever - I'd rather read the books than listen to the CDs. The problem being that I have more time to read (on my way to work for example) than to listen to anything...

Maybe I'll just stick to the movies. I saw the trailer for Prince Caspian the other day (Jenny had posted a link on Facebook). Awesome!

Tuesday, 11 December 2007


I stayed home today due to a killer headache.

So, I was sitting on my couch, trying not to move too much, when suddenly there was loud noise outside. I went to my living room window, and guess what? Just today they are tearing down the old school that's round the corner, and which I have a perfect view on from my 3rd floor window.
OK, we were all waiting for this to happen, because the ruin the school was, was really unsightly, and as far as we now, there will be a new park on the property of the school.

But did they have to do this today? *sigh*

My only comfort is, that the level of noise is kept down by closed windows, so my head doesn't suffer too much...

ETA: Since I stayed home, I was hoping to get some writing done. But no such luck, my headache prevented that. But that's OK. Better getting well again than getting words down. But they are already in my head, so I just need to find some time :)

Sunday, 9 December 2007



did the organisation this weekend.

A lot of scenes fit together quite nicely, and I will only need a few sentences or paragraphs to connect them. Nothing major.

On the other hand, I noticed that I have a big gap at the begining. I thought about what should go there and noticed that I only have a couple of short scenes. Hmm...

I decided that I should write linearly for some time, to get at least a rough outline for those chapters. I won't be averse to ideas for later chapters, and if something new delevops, I will write that first. But for the time being I will try linear writing :)

So, only to find the time for writing now...

Pre-Christmas Time (meaning the month of December) is always a frenzy of projects, birthdays and meetings, and I'm absolutely smashed and glad to sit down at the end of a day, that writing is unfortunately usually far from my mind. And if it's not, pen and paper or my laptop are too far from my sitting position and I'm too tired to get up :)

I will half my word goal of December to 5000 words and see what I can get accomplished of that.

Wednesday, 5 December 2007

Fun with Treadmills

I found this funny little clip on Pam's blog:

Tuesday, 4 December 2007


I'm still alive, just very busy.

And I haven't made any progress for a long time.

I had a new story idea (see my other post) and my thoughts have been on that much more often than I would have liked.

But I'm refusing on giving up just yet with "Ella" and I thought about what I could do.
So here's the deal:

I will write down a rough chapter plan. Then will take all my scenes and snippets and will assign those to the chapters. Then I will proceed to fill the blanks between the scenes. And I still need an end, so I will have to think about that, but hiopefully that will come to me in the course of the reorganisation.

Wish me luck! :)

Saturday, 1 December 2007

November Check In

Didn't really get anything accomplished last month...

Zokutou word meterZokutou word meter
5,394 / 10,020

Zokutou word meterZokutou word meter
40,333 / 100,000

Tuesday, 27 November 2007

New Idea

I have the first sentences for a new idea that has spoked around in my head.

And since I cannot seem to work on my current WIP, here is the new beginning:

The sun rose on a mild, grey morning, casting its pale glow over the slumbering streets of City. The world stirred. Curtains were pulled back to allow the feeble rays of sunlight in, doors were opened to welcome the occasional breeze. A new day was beginning.

For everyone the world revolved as usual, but for one family, exactly one week ago, the world had ended. Had ended with the discovery of a beaten and bloodied body in an alley.

Sunday, 25 November 2007


Carol tagged me, so here goes:

Four Things You May or May Not Know About Me

A) Four jobs I have had in my lifetime:
1. Temporary Shop Assistant
2. Trainee
3. Business Woman in Foreign Trade
4. -

B) Four movies I would watch over & over:
2. Harry Potter
3. Pirates of the Caribbean
4. Braveheart

C) 4 places I have lived:
1. Essen, Germany
2. Mülheim, Germany
3. and back to Essen
4. -

D) Four TV Shows that I watch:
1. CSI Miami / Las Vegas
2. Dr. House
4. Criminal Minds

E) Four places I have been:
1. Cape Town, South Africa
2. Madrid, Spain
3. London, GB
4. Texel, Netherlands

F) Four people who e-mail me (regularly):
1. Silke, my colleague from work
2. Lara, my sister
3. Nina, my best friend (yes, her name is Nina too)
4. The regulars on Facebook

G) Four of my favorite foods:
1. Asian
2. Pizza
3. Vegetables (any, but favourites are spinach and broccoli)
4. Fruits

H) Four places I would rather be right now:
1. Ireland
2. Scotland
3. not here
4. somewhere sunny and warm

I) Things I am looking forward to this and next year:
1. Finishing "Ella"
2. Having more time
3. Getting started on a new idea
4. Winning the lottery ;)

You are reading this and are not tagged yet? Well, what are you waiting for? :)

Thursday, 8 November 2007

Kept scene with a new life

Ain’t it strange?

Some time ago, I posted a snippet for one of the exercises in the Forum (cannot remember which month). Jo had some very good and helpful comments on it, and I reworked part of it, but didn’t know where it would fit in the story then.
And, while I was writing more and more, I became convinced, that I could not use this scene at all, but was loath to delete it and just moved it to another folder (“You never know,” I thought).

And you really never now. While I was tipping away last night, I was thinking about how the scene could develop, what could happen. And I remembered the scene. Pulled it out, read it, amended it slightly aaaand… it fit perfectly. At least until I do revisions *g*
But for the moment the situation is just what I needed in that scene in that place.

Perhaps I will post the scene later or tomorrow.

Tuesday, 6 November 2007


The strangest thing happened to me last night.

I was lying in bed, letting my thoughts drift. I was slipping away to sleep when I saw an image before my eyes. And was suddenly jolted awake again, by the realisation that this was an image of the dragon’s island. I knew it had a volcano, but not, that it had this strangely formed beach.

I was standing “on” the volcano - although now I think about it, it was more like hovering above it - and looking down at the empty beach.

Even today I see this image clearly in front of my eyes, whereas often in the morning I only remember that I saw something, but not the actual thing. (And although I know I’m asleep then, I cannot make myself to wake up and write it down)

I know, very hard on the imagination...
This looks nothing like what I saw in my dream, but I haven't got a scanner available at the moment and can only work with this ball-shaped thingy for a mouse on my laptop. No precise drawing with that one.

Thursday, 1 November 2007

Off the Internet

Everyone that I'm following regularly has resolved to stay off the net for a while and concentrate on writing.

I need this withdrawal too, so I guess I'll join the ladies. :)
I will check my mail, visit Facebook ONCE a day and update my word meter, but NOT MORE.
I will write everyday, will meet my goals and be happy by the end of the month. *g*

December will probably be very busy, with the holidays and such, and I need to stay a bit ahead of my goals...



I decreased my total word count from 120,000 to 100,000 because after I have written this much and have given it some thought, I believe this is more realistic (and enough by far, I don't intent to step into Diana's shoes - too much *g*)

And although I have written over 2000 words yesterday, the total word count hasn't increased much, as I've slashed and burned almost 1700 words (*ouch*).
I thought this would only be coming with revisions, but why keep something that will not stay anyhow? Just hurt a bit progresswise...

October Check In

I didn't quite meet my October goal, but I still got over 10K, so that's Ok, if only not satisfying.


34,939 / 100,000


10,619 / 13,833

No NaNoWriMo


I decided to not participate in the NaNoWriMo. I after due consideration I decided that I have not enough time and cannot make time and the pressure would be too high.

I will stick to my meager 334 words a day for November. Constant dripping wears away the stone. *g*

Monday, 29 October 2007

I'm back

In general: I'm back from Dresden, where the national meeting of the members of the Community of the Cross of Nails took place. (i went there for the first time)
We of course came from all over Germany and our speaial guest where from Cincinatti, USA (Jim Diamont) and Coventry,GB (Simon Monaghan).
I had a wonderful (if sometimes wearisome) three days. The city is beautiful, and I will definitively go back some time to see more. The people I met have been lovely and it's nice to make new connections all over the country.

On Friday we had to deal with all the administrative stuff. The secretary - that I've known for 5 years now - asked me to run for one of the 12 positions in the - what we call - "Leitungskreis" (people that decide substitiutionally for the whole national community). She wanted to have younger people in it, so I said yes. And was elected. Yai! :)
But then, the "Leitungskreis" had to decide on three of them that would make the Board, and after 5 minutes or so I was suddenly in it. So I'm now a member of the Board of the German CCN.

And on writing: Not much got done, but I will sit down today and on Wednesday to achieve my October goal.

Wednesday, 24 October 2007


Look at the Word Meter.

Makes me want to cry...

Thursday, 18 October 2007

What Kind of Reader Am I?

What Kind of Reader Are You?
Your Result: Dedicated Reader

You are always trying to find the time to get back to your book. You are convinced that the world would be a much better place if only everyone read more.

Literate Good Citizen
Obsessive-Compulsive Bookworm
Book Snob
Fad Reader
What Kind of Reader Are You?
Create Your Own Quiz

(About Half Month) Progress

This month has been real slow.

I'm 1400 words behind. I write a bit more than my planned words every day, but that's not enough.

To make matters worse, I'm up to my nose in work (I know why that is and why I cannot do anything against it at the moment; but I won't mention it, as you never know who reads this)

Last weekend of October I'm in Dresden, so no work will be done then, but the week after that I'm off work, and hopefully, hopefully, I will be able to make up my deficit.

Wednesday, 17 October 2007

What Kind of Writer Should I Be

You Should Be a Film Writer

You don't just create compelling stories, you see them as clearly as a movie in your mind.
You have a knack for details and dialogue. You can really make a character come to life.
Chances are, you enjoy creating all types of stories. The joy is in the storytelling.
And nothing would please you more than millions of people seeing your story on the big screen!
What Type of Writer Should You Be?

Well, I instinctively knew this all the time. But here also lies the problem. At times my writing resembles a script more than a novel. Things definitely need to be fleshed out in revisions...

Wednesday, 10 October 2007


I amused myself again:

just another rant
reading yes i do not want
to sit down and write


put ella on hold
for november because i
cannot imagine (hm, this might be a good suggestion)

I'm feeling better now though I still haven't written anything. I think I'll let it be for today.


Sheesh, it's already 20:43 (oh, sorry, 8:43 pm) and I haven't written anything today.

I usually plan to write between 7 and 8, that's the best time for me. Now I'm just plain tired...

And my word meter is not completely accurate, as my October plan has not the same word amount for every day, so I'm really 700 words behind. *sigh*

So, no real news on the progress just (another) rant.


Yes, I do get to read :)

Normally, when I buy books, I pay a bit attention to how thick they are. I love fat books, but they are rather unpractical when you want to read them on the bus or elsewhere, and realy pull you down when you have them in your bag. So I buy fat and slimmer books almost in the same quantity, so that I have the fat book for at home and the slimmer one when I'm on the road.

But at the moment when I get home I cannot part with the book I'm rading currently. That would be "Jack, Knave and Fool" by Bruce Alexander. But I really do not want to read it at home, so I have more of it when I'm on my way. I noticed that this the fifth book of a serial, and I will definitively buy the other four. The story takes place in London in 1771 and every time the first-person narrator walks along The Strand or St. James Street or through Covent Garden, I always think "May he have seen Lord John?"
It's crazy really. But I cannot help myself...

Oh, and the book I have bought to read at home is "Illumination" by Terry McGarry.

Monday, 8 October 2007

A Monster

... this way comes.

It has fingers that lure the thoughts out of your head, a voice that makes you think of other things and a face that sends you screaming. This monster has a name: Writer's Block.

Dear Godness, I had one week off and I promised not to pressure myself to much, but 3400 instead of 4300 words?
And now, now I want to sit down and write something, and I'm remembering that I have to do this and that and... I'm finding all kinds of excuses not to write.

Isn't there a cure against monsters in the wardrobe or behind curtains? That might help here too.
Laughter? (I need to watch Monsters Inc. again, I love that movie *g*)

Saturday, 6 October 2007

Free Burma

I have no idea if this helps any, but here we go:

Free Burma!

When I got up today, the news reader said that everyone who wants to support the monks is to wear red shirts/pullovers etc. today. Well, I hadn't already been dressed then, so I'm wearing red today.
We've been at IKEA's earlier on, and I don't know if the people wearing red did it because of the appeal, but one family cerntainly did, as all five of them wore red. That was too much of a coincidence...

Friday, 5 October 2007


Everywhere I look people are finding or trying to find pictures of actors or musicians or else that look like their characters.
I googled a bit and found two German actors that come close to what I picture Ruwen and Taisha to be like.

Ruwen here and Taisha here

I couldn't find pictures of Ella or Adrien, but Edan (aka Abosaa) might be here somewhere.

Thursday, 4 October 2007


I need your opinion here:

Should I change the layout in regards to colour? Is the white/light grey on black too hard on the eyes?

I've noticed that a lot of you (addressing those whose blogs I read) use black script on light colours.

Monday, 1 October 2007

New Month, New Goals

As I've two weeks off work in October, I'm planning on writing a bit more than the average 10,000 words.
As usual, we'll see how that works out.

But I'm also planning on enjoying these days off, as I really need them, so I won't pressure myself too much.

Sunday, 30 September 2007

September Check In

Ok, my goal was to write 334 words every day. On 7 days I didn't write at all. On the other 23 days I either wrote less or more. Never quite managed to write about 334 words :)

So the summary would be as follows:


Zokutou word meterZokutou word meter
26,004 / 120,000


Zokutou word meter
10,186 / 10,020

Friday, 28 September 2007



Just want to rant a bit...

I had a few scenes planned out and wrote them, connecting them with some of the scenes I've written about a year ago. So far so good.

And now?

Now I feel kind of... dry.

I have another scene planned out, but I wanted to write that next month, when I've finished what I planned for this. But now I'm sitting at work, trying to finish the last scene planned for September (and getting my daily word amount down) and CAN NOT THINK OF A SINGLE THING TO WRITE! *arg!*

I WANT to write! I want to WRITE!

Don't mind me...

Monday, 24 September 2007



I have been too exhausted to do much, and I allowed myself half a day at the shopping mall with my sister, her boyfriend and our cousins, rather than write.

I will get back to it today I hope. I have a few things planned out, I "just2 need to write them.

ETA: I just wrote 988 words. That's not making up for all of the weekend, but since I'm slightly ahead of my plan now, I'll leave it be

Thursday, 20 September 2007

Rubble and Ashes

A book-seller whose blog I follow has posted this:

A customer came to the shop and asked "Do you have the book "Rubble and Ashes"?

In German: "Schutt und Asche". This is a established term in German. In English that would mean something along the lines of "(reduce the city to) rubble and ashes"
So it's kind of understandable that she remembered the phrase, but not the actual title.

The book-seller was able to help out anyway, btw.

The whole point of me posting this is, that I always like to talk about "Diana anecdotes" (I'm a geek, did you notice?), and "A Breath of Snow and Ashes" is my favourite of the series.

Wednesday, 19 September 2007

Complaint against God

You wouldn't believe what I just read:

Some politician in Lincoln, Nebraska, USA, is trying to enforce an injunction against God, to stop floods and tornados that cause death, destruction, and terror for millions upon millions of people; and because God is the reason for terroristic threats.

I’m shaking my head here...

I’m wondering what Jen has to say about that, as a law student and Lincoln citizen.

Monday, 17 September 2007

Writing-free Weekend

It seems to me that the last weekend has been writing-free for quite a few people - including me.

Haven't written a word, not even thought about writing (Ok, that's not entirely true, I thought about writing, but I didn't know what and didn't have the time anyhow...)
So I'm about 800 words behind (and only 800 because I had been 500 words ahead).
That means I have to write more than 1100 words today, and I don't have the time. Again. But I will have to get something down, because I cannot imagine writing 1500 words tomorrow (no time again; what is it with appointments this week?)

Just wanted to get that out, so I won't think about it anymore and can concentrate on actual writing. Don't mind me.

(Life's what happens between the lines, and more often than not breaks them up.)

ETA: *phew* I just produced 1300 words. That leaves me with 137 for tomorrow. That's doable :)

Wednesday, 12 September 2007


I just browsed the NaNoWriMo site a bit and I am thinking about participating.

It's just... my current WIP will have more than 50,000 words, Part 1 will probably have less.
And starting a new one... I could do the plotting in October and put "Ella" on hold for November (because I don't think I will be able to manage 2000 words a day; heck, I don't know how I will be able to write 1700 a day!)

Anyone else thinking about joining?

Tuesday, 11 September 2007


Although it's been six years now, it's still all we have been talking about at work.

And still cannot comprehend it, if ever...


Okay, an update:

I wanted to write 1670 words in the 5 marathon days and actually got 2532 (and didn't even write on Sunday)

I'm quite pleased with that.

And today I will go over 20K. That's only a sixth of the overall wordcount, but still, that's the first milestone for me.

I finally see some progress and and that's pushing me on. And where I only saw black in the plot and story, there's now some light grey and hopefully it will be all white not too long from now.
While I type away I get new ideas, and I'm already looking forward to working on them.

On another note: Carol talked about going crazy with having another WIP in her mind. And I so can relate. I have 4 (four!!) other WIPs in my mind (two of which will belong to the same universe as "Ella"). But I'm afraid - as Carol said too - that if I work on them also, I will have five uncompleted stories some time in the future and will never be able to finish one of them. So I let them stew and see what will become of them, when I'm at least finished with the first draft of "Ella".

Saturday, 8 September 2007


We have a marathon this week again - hosted by the formidable Claire - over at Compuserve, and I didn't note down my goals for it, but here they are:

- write at least 334 words every day, according to to my monthly goal (see my wordmeter for September, I'm doing very well at the moment)
- get the scenes from 29 August to 9 September into two chapters
- revise those chapters, fill in blanks

This will probably take longer than the duration of the marathon, but I guess it will be doable next week, so by the weekend I will have my first ever two chapters. Yai! :)

Thursday, 30 August 2007

New counters

I decided to have monthly counters on this blog as well.
The first is the word quantity I want to achieve and the second shows the days. Ideally the procentage for words is equal to that for the days (or better) but we'll see how that goes...

As you can see, I did well for August already. :) I wrote myself an outline of one "chapter" and curiously writing only as much as the day quantity requires (or a bit more to finish a sentence/thought) has been working exceptionally well.

Killing off my MC

I remember quite clearly that I was quite shocked while reading «The Pillars of the Earth» for the first time. The beginning is told through Tom Builder's POV and then suddenly he is killed. Leaving the reader a bit disorientated for a moment, and then shifting to someone else's POV (Aliena's?).

This and the fact that my Intensive Course German teacher had said something of the effect of "Kill the good guy! Let him die while the others still like him!" (He also said "There always has to be a river" - but that's another matter *g*) has lead to the fact that for some time the idea of killing off Ella has brooded in my mind.

I don't know how this story will end so I cannot say if Ella may play a crucial part. And at the moment I'm writing solely from her POV (not that I cannot change the POV to a different character for some scenes), and I'm having problems of hearing any of the others clearly. So this might be a sign, that I should keep Ella in the story - or not.

So, what do you think? Keep her and see what she does or go for the big wham?

Wednesday, 29 August 2007


I got the soundtrack of Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix for my birthday and it's all I'm listening to at the moment (besides the radio in the morning).

I must say I hugely enjoy those orchestral soundtracks like those for all the Harry Potter movies or for Lord of the Rings or Pirates of the Caribbean.

It's the kind of background music I need to write...


Found a haiku generator on Jenny's blog today.

Of the 5 or 6 I generated I liked the following two best:

had to carry my
purchase until i got one
like diana's this year

my grave and weep i
am not there i became
bold and posted a

Monday, 27 August 2007

Irish Blessings

While searching for a sailor's blessing for Jenny, I found this beautiful blessing for the left-behind:

Do Not Stand at My Grave and Weep

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there... I do not sleep.
I am the thousand winds that blow...
I am the diamond glints on snow...
I am the sunlight on ripened grain...
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you waken in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of gentle birds in circling flight...
I am the soft star that shines at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry-
I am not there... I did not die...

Friday, 24 August 2007


I'll go to bed in a few and get up at 3a.m. again to talk to the Compuserve lot. For them it's 9p.m. then :)

I'll see if I maybe get some-/anything written down, and perhaps I'll do this tomorrow again. And if I get good ideas in the night, maybe I'll do this every weekend.

In the night when all is silent and even the air seems to be asleep, inspiration may strike...

Thursday, 23 August 2007

e.e. cummings

I've been watching Emergency Room yesterday evening with my parents. It was the episode where Abby marries Luca.
Abby recited a wonderful poem by e.e. cummings and I thought I'd post it here

i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

Wednesday, 22 August 2007

Mary Sue

The discussion on Jenny's blog, if her Elspeth is a Mary Sue (I personally don't think so) made me wonder about Ella.

So I took the two tests mentioned by precie and here are the results.

Score for this test:
The Non-Sue. Your character is a well-developed, balanced person, and is almost certainly not a Mary Sue. Congratulations!

And for this:
Ella is only a little like you. She isn't really very cool: she blends into crowds, she hangs out on the fringes at parties, and wearing shades after dark makes her run into things. She may have sometimes thought that she was special, or destined for greater things, but probably dismissed the idea as a fantasy. She's come in for her share of hurt, but gotten off with minor damage. And she's gotten no slack from you.

In general, you care deeply about Ella, but you're smart enough to let her stand on her own, without burdening her with your personal fantasies or propping her up with idealization and over-dramatization. Ella is a healthy character with a promising career ahead of her.

Score Breakdown
I Love Her, I Let Her Go 5
You Mean Plaid Is Out? 9
I'm Destined For What? 5
Can't Complain 7
Momma HATES Her! 0
Total: 26

Although if you look at the questions, you'll find that they are sometimes difficult to apply to a character in a fantasy world (regarding eye colour, certain behaviour etc.) as that world listens to different rules than ours


I'm a bit stuck at the moment. So today I browsed (a daughter of, where I read a lot of Harry Potter fanfiction - there, I admitted it!).

As this story will be Fantasy I had a look at their Fantasy section. I haven't read much yet, but what I've read hasn't really been that inspiring.
And I'm afraid if I like something I won't be able to leave it out of my story...

I saw Diana's post on First Lines today, over at Compuserve, and gave it a try. I hadn't even considered the beginning before, but I sat down and thought on it a bit, and I guess I got something, I can work with.

So how do you like this?:

Receiving a letter with the government crest on it was always a bad thing; but this was exponentially worse.

Monday, 20 August 2007


Today I'll be busy with cleaning away the rest of what's left of my birthday party.
But hopefully I'll be getting back to writing tomorrow.

I noticed that what I've written lately has more often than not been rather gloomy. Perhaps I'll write a cheerful birthday scene. Not for the stoy itself but for me. :)

Sunday, 19 August 2007


It's still my birthday for another 2 hours and 47 minutes...

I'm happy and exhausted. :) The weather was behaving in my favour, after it had been cloudy and rainy the last few days, the sun was shining today.

As for presents: For years and years I've been trying to get my family to get me books. But they couldn't be persuaded. Only every now and then I got one (like Diana's).
This year my wishlist consisted of almost nothing else but books and gift certificates for books aaand... I got them :) For the next few weeks I'll do nothing but browsing my bookstore. :)

Wednesday, 15 August 2007

Oh well...

...or not.

I've been feeling ill all day, went home earlier than usual. The kind of ill, where you don't really know what to do with yourself.

Perhaps I should write about it - they do say you should take inspiration from things around you, no?
And Taisha will not be used to the food the others have with them on their journey (her being born to a high family)...

Tuesday, 14 August 2007

Communication II.

When I sat down yesterday evening to write a bit, words suddenly appeared almost by themselves. I love it when they do that. :) It's so much nicer than forcing myself to WRITE and truggle with sentences I don't like.
Not a mushroom character, but a mushroom scene. :)
I experimented with my communication idea and the result can be found on the right under "Excerpts".
I'll add a few more snippets every now and then. Depending on how much I like them and if they seem "public worthy" ;)

Monday, 13 August 2007


You're probably wondering what this story of mine is all about.

Here's a summary (what I know about the WIP so far):

This is Fantasy and plays in a post-war world (“country” A has fought against “country” B; I’ll have to work on the reasons). There are many orphaned children, most of them living on the street, mostly in gangs that steal and plunder, and are generally being a nuisance.
After several years the government decides to put a stop to that and enacts a law, that allows it to put two single persons together with two children from the street; or a childless couple – married or not.
The first part starts when the MC Ella gets a letter telling her when and where to meet her ‘partner’.
Ella is in her late twenties - I think - has fought in the war, has been in the Resistance, has always been on her own (although she has almost been engaged to one of the other Resistance members, but we find that out only much later), and definitely doesn’t want a family. Ruwen, her partner, is the same age, has had nothing to do with the war (for reasons he has yet to tell me) but knows the politics. They are assigned to Leandra, a 14 year old girl and Jesper, a 5 year old boy. In the course of things they take on Levin, 16, as well, because they find out that he’s Jesper’s brother.
They try to live together, but especially for Ella that’s very hard, because she’s not willing to make room for other persons in her life.
It becomes obvious – at least to Ella – that if things continue to develop as they do, there will be another war soon. Before she can decide what to do - because by now she does consider her family members, not to forget that she has fallen for Ruwen - Levin leaves to join the new Resistance and that makes up her mind for her to go as well. Ruwen is very angry about that, and Ella leaves with the knowledge that she will probably never see her children again.
Ella visits one of the ‘old’ Resistance members, but he is not willing to risk his family and his life just for Ella’s assumption, because he’s not certain that there will be a war again. After he tells Ella that her almost-fiancé is dead, she leaves and joins the New Resistance.

In the second part Ella does not find Levin, because he’s with another group, but she meets many new people, e.g. the brother, Adrien, of one of the members of the old resistance, that Ella knew well. The group decides that since the other “country” has found an ally in a third “country” they will defeat them from within with the help of the dragons that live on the border between “country” B and C.
On their way, Adrien is kidnapped and tortured to tell their plans, and in the curse of things he’s suddenly married to “country” B leader’s daughter. She flees with him and they rejoin the group. Of course everyone is wary of the wife, but Taisha earns their trust with background knowledge.
They meet one of the dragon’s keepers then, but before they can convince him to help them and persuade the dragons, this keeper is killed. (He’s called Abosaa right now, red-haired and the dragons love snow so he’s always surrounded by its smell. Is there a bell ringing? Well, I need to find him another name, but Diana’s book came to mind when I thought about him…).
Adrien has some problems with Taisha along the way, because he isn’t used to her yet and she’s used to people obeying her and is a headstrong person.
Their last option is one Ella doesn’t want to think about, because the person that could help them is the reason that she has abandoned and then lost her family (the first one; mother, father, siblings) and then joined the Resistance. But Adrien knows about it and “betrays” her by telling the others. Ella then agrees to take them to this person, and he is willing to help.

You’ll have noticed that there’s no end yet. The Resistance uses this mysterious person’s help (he sends a special army) but other than that… I don’t know. Will they be victorious? Will Ella find Levin? See her family again? What about Adrien and Taisha?
I do not know. I guess I’ll find out…


My thinking of yesterday didn't leave me alone, and while I lay wide-awake in my bed last night, I thought about possibilities how the "wizards" in my story might communicate, and I think i finally figured it out.
This will of course need some more consideration and I will have to work out the exact possibilities and limits of this method, but it's a start.

And at least three new scenes started to develop, making up for yesterday's lack of progress.

Sunday, 12 August 2007

Samt und Säbel

Eve's book arrived on Friday. I was very exited. :) I could only open it on Saturday and have only read a few pages so far, as I have - as usual - several books in the read at the same time.

I accompanied my sister to a casting for a TV show today, and had to wait a lot while she was in answering questions and such. And stupid me had forgotten to bring any book. How I wished to be able to read
Samt und Säbel then....

So I decided to write some bits down of my own story and guess what? I forgot my pen and paper. Aaaargh!!
I had no choice but to stare out of the window and
think, but I fear due to a heavy headache I had the whole day, I forgot half of it again. So much for making any progress... *sigh*

Friday, 10 August 2007


Today it's so foggy, I haven't seen the other side of the street - or the tree directly in front of my window, for that matter - all day.

Later on I will go jogging again. Hopefully the wather will have cleared by then.

I will need to prepare for my birthday next week and on Sunday I'm in Cologne, so there won't be much writing done this weekend.

I wanted to do the August X, perhaps I'll find time on Sunday evening...

Wednesday, 8 August 2007


Zu Anfang will ich kurz erwähnen, dass ich höllischen Muskelkater habe.
Ich bin Montag das erste Mal seit 3 Jahren wieder gelaufen - 18 Minuten, nach Plan - und klar, das gibt Muskelkater. Der hat mich auch heute beim Laufen nicht gestört, aber jetzt, wo ich hier sitze...

Da es geschüttet hat wie sonst was, habe ich meinen Ipod nicht mitgenommen. Im Nachhinein habe ich festgestellt, dass ich den so hätte anbringen können, dass er unter der Regenjacke nicht nass geworden wär. Aber hinter ist man immer schlauer. Also habe ich mir überlegt womit ich mich ablenken könnte. Und klar, dachte ich, denk mal über deine Story nach. Aber ich hatte nach diesem Entschluss keine zwei Schritte getan, da war mein Kopf auch schon leer. Ich konnte mich gar nicht auf etwas bestimmtes konzentrieren, meine Gedanken sind einfach so überherrgeschwirrt, aber wirklich gedacht hab ich nicht.

Kann ich meinen tollen Plan, beim Joggen übers Schreiben nachzudenken, also direkt an den Nagel hängen. Nun gut, eigentlich hatte ich dann jetzt vor an der August Aufgabe im Books and Writers Forum teilzunehmen, aber da habe ich jetzt auch keine Lust mehr zu. So wird das nie was...

Ich brauch ne Motivation


Ab sofort werde ich auf deutsch weiterschreiben, denn ich denke, dass ist für die, die - hoffentlich - hier ab und zu vorbeischauen, einfacher.

Wednesday, 21 March 2007

Crappy day

I've had the crappiest day today.

First I woke up drenched in cold sweat and freezing. What the heck did I dream? I couldn't remember.

Work was not improving my mood, but well...

Then after work I tried to get some money from ATM and what did it say? "You card's broken". Thanks to my
Mom for paying my hair cut later on...
So I went out without money - only had a few coins left - and went to the supermarket to at least buy toast and cheese. And got some nice strawberries - for my sister and my soul.
It was raining lightly but the kind that still gets you wet in minutes. And I couldn't use my umbrella, because I had to carry my purchase. Until I got to my sister's I was drenched, had frozen fingers (the weather is very crappy too at the moment, very cold in the mornings, cold in the afternoon, windy and rainy) but was too warm in general because of my heavy coat and thick boots.

So when I finally got to my godfather's house for my haircut I was ready to quit it for the day, but as I mentioned my Mom paid the haircut and I got a nice cup of tea. Tea helps with everything and I was feeling much restored afterwards.

So now I'm getting this outta my system and ready for bed.

G'night te ye

Thursday, 15 March 2007


Whoho, I bought an ipod Shuffle today.

It's pink and I already like it lots. I bought it to go jogging with, because the MD player I have is just too heavy for that.


Wednesday, 14 March 2007


I spent some time reading the entries on yesterday evening and was appalled at how stupid and rude some of the agents are. Are they only interested in their own success? What about ideology? That the soul of the author is in his/her book(s)? Doesn't count for some obviously...

And I was asking myself, could something like this happen to me when I finished my WIP and planned to publish it?

Well, there are not many people engaged in the agent business here in Germany, and as far as I've learned so far, authors usually contact publishers directly.

But who knows how the situation will be in, say, 10 years?

However stupidity is international I think, and you would meet stupid and nice agents everywhere. Any many (successful) authors have plainly found someone that dedicates their time and patience and what not for those books.

Monday, 12 March 2007

About the title

I created this blog to talk about my current WIP.

Why's it called "She never saw..."? She has no idea.

When I was about to post a snippet of said WIP I was thinking about a working title I could give it, and "She never saw..." suddenly came up.
It has nothing to do with the story as far as I know at the moment. But who knows? Stranger things have happened...

About me

So, Ok, who am I?

Oh hoho, tough question...

But I'll start with the basics:

Name: Nina
Age: 23 at the moment; birthday's on 19 August 1983
Location: Germany
Hobbies: Reading (lots!!), writing (not nearly as much as I wish), listening to music

For those who are interested: I started writing stories when I learned to read and write (at the age of 7) and always have since then. Never anything for the public eye (including family), but for about three years now, I have written things down that I myself like much more and that in a way fit together (meaning, they could perhaps end in a novel length story).
I've joined the Books and Writers Community at Compuserve and as there are so many nice, caring, encouraging, inspiring, creative and helpful people there, I became bold and posted a few snippets over there. They'll probably find their way here too, sooner or later.

Ok, I started this blog to talk about my progress with my current WIP. But I'll probably rant about everything else nevertheless.